Focus has always been one of the major problems I’ve had since I was little, alongside a poor memory. These two make my brain feel broken and almost unusable. For example, this summer, I planned to read more, but this time my goal was stricter since I no longer consider fiction books. However, we’re almost two months in now, and I haven’t read a single non-fiction book yet. No matter how interesting the titles are or how much I want/need to read them, I just can’t keep my eyes on a page for more than 25 minutes. Even if I do manage to do so, my brain would be elsewhere, diving deep down into its own endless rabbit holes. It’s a nightmare how trying harder to focus only seems to make it somehow worse. I used to have a trick to help myself focus on reading, where I would hold the book between my hands and play a mix of brown noise, music, and the audio version of the book I’m reading. While that helped me make my way through many books, it just doesn’t feel right anymore…